well.... at least i feel like that anyways........
over the coarse of years i spent on this website it has become almost obvious to me
that i can possibly get away with saying the most offensive shit known to man and everyone will be cool
with it....... this is due to the fact that my blatant ass-holery is smoothed over by a tinge of comedy.......
for instance..... i'm known for being the "scary black man" or some shit....... and having this knowledge
combined with all the fucks/ rat's asses i give leads me to say shit that should logically get me banned
from this website..... or at the very least.... highly disliked by anyone with a functioning brain organ......
like when i say something along the lines of "fuck your problems.... my dick hurts and i'm out of beer"......
or "you make me want to gouge out your eyes with a rusty spoon"........
people tend to laugh at that and go "Awwww, we love you Mr. Deadman, and we hope you feel better!"
now..... i am well aware of the comedy that is added to the initial insult that just spouted out of my mouth parts......
but what people don't seem to realize is that i'm deadly serious about what i just said.......
when i say i don't care.... i really mean it...... and when i say i want to beat the shit out of you...... i really mean
that too.......
now..... i know that this is the internets and that threatening someone over the internets is like  running in the
special olympics...... in the end it's still retarded..... but i tend to do it anyways...... and people just shrug it off......
which leaves me wondering "why do i get away with this.....?" if anyone else said the exact same things that i say
they'd more than likely get ostracized for it........ instead i get showered with affection......
what's the point of all this....? well..... that in itself is the point.......
my girlfriend however, suffers from the exact opposite..... she's one of the most rational people that i know
and hardly ever dishes out the caliber of "fuck yous" that i dish out...... yet she get's all of the ostracization and
none of the affection....... she's known for trying to talk things out rationally and remain cordial.... while i'm known
for flying off the handle and insulting your whole family.......  it just makes me wonder why this happens to
her and not me....... is it because she's a girl and i'm a guy.....? is it because she's white and i'm black......?
is it because the world is full of masochists who wouldn't
know what common sense is if it ran up and kicked em in the vagina parts......? i have no clue.......
and i will probably never be able to figure it out.......
anyways.... that's just what's been rolling around my mind bones for the past few days........
and with that i'll stop rambling on like a crazy person........
just somethin to ponder about while i gulp down the last of my beer before headin off to bed.......